Go With It

I am learning to go with the flow with Juliana home from work. It is actually less stressful when I take the pressure off of myself when she changes the schedule. There are only so many hours in the day and only so much I can get done in those hours. Yesterday, it meant I picked up the kids from school instead of making banana bread and vacuuming, dusting, and mopping the floors. No worries. Will try to do it today. If stuff gets done, it gets done. If it doesn't, it doesn't. It has only taken me 4yrs to get to this place and now that I have an end date - she was laid off, which means I am being let go - it seems that I am able to see work this way. Literally, as long as laundry, lunches and dinner are made, the other stuff is just the fluff. I can't do it all. I just can't believe it has taken me this long to allow myself that luxury. lol Today is a new day. Maybe it will happen, maybe it won't. Not gonna stress.